Pecah Lobang — Documentary About Muslim Transsexual Sex Workers In Malaysia

August 27th, 2008
Posted by: Gabrielle Chong Yong Wei


Pecah Lobang: Muslim transsexual sex workers in Malaysia from Poh Si Teng on Vimeo.

 ”Pecah Lobang” was directed by Poh Si Teng (http://www.pohsi.com), one of the winners of the Freedom Film Fest 2008.

“Pecah Lobang”, which means “busted”, explores what it’s like to be a Muslim transsexual sex worker in Malaysia.

Shot in the Chow Kit red light district, the documentary revolves around Natasha, a Muslim Mak Nyah, who refuses to live life as a man. Unable to secure employment because of discrimination, Natasha turns to sex work and lives in constant fear of the police and religious authorities.

Crossdressing is a crime under Syariah law for Muslims and the penalties are severe. But it wasn’t always so. How did Malaysia become so heavy-handed on the transsexual community?

A religious scholar, a physician who conducted sex change surgeries, a sociologist, three attorneys and an outreach worker explain how it all came to be.

Screenings will be held at the following venues on the following dates:

(1) The Annexe Gallery Studio Theatre, Kuala Lumpur (6 Sept. 2008) - 9:00 p.m.

(ii) Tropical Inn, Johor Bahru (13 Sept. 2008) - 9:00 p.m.

(iii) Old Court House, Kuching (20 Sept. 2008) - 9:00 p.m.

(iii) Wawasan Open University (WOU), Penang (27 Sept. 2008) - 9:00 p.m.

The director molding her craft.

 For more information, please see http://www.pecahlobang.com.

Seksualiti Merdeka - The First LGBT-themed Festival In Malaysia

August 18th, 2008
Posted by: Gabrielle Chong Yong Wei

Fri 29 Aug to Sun 31 Aug

The Annexe Gallery’s inaugural three-day series of forums, workshops, storytelling sessions and film screenings devoted to the theme of sexuality rights in Malaysia.

Seksualiti Merdeka will take place on 29, 30 & 31 August in conjunction with our Merdeka celebrations to address the fact that 51 years after independence, not all Malaysians are free to be who they are. Many of us are proud productive citizens of the country, yet we live double lives, pretending to be somebody we are not; fearful we may lose our jobs, our families, our lives, the moment someone finds out who we truly love. It is time to ask, why this has to be. Cause, as the song says, if one of us ain’t free, none of us are free.

Seksualiti Merdeka will be held in conjunction with ART FOR GRABS, the popular Annexe art bazaar, as well as INVENTING MALAYSIA, an exhibition, series of lectures and screenings of pre-Merdeka films shot in Malaya by foreigners, curated by Dr Farish A Noor and TheOtherMalaysia.

FRI 29 AUG

Seksualiti Merdeka Opening Event
8pm - 10.30pm: Film: “Comolot” by Mohd Ikram Ismail, “Pangyau” by Amir Muhammad and “Arisan” by Nia Dinata. (Gallery 1, 2nd Floor)

SAT 30 AUG

12pm - 2pm: Forum: To Live Without Fear – Dealing with violence against transsexuals (Gallery 4, 1st Floor)
3pm - 5pm: Forum: Probing Sexualities – Recent research into sexual diversity in Malaysia (Gallery 4, 1st Floor)
6pm - 7.30pm: Lecture: Psychology of Homophobia – Find out if you fit the profile (Gallery 4, 1st Floor)
8.30pm - 10.30pm: Storytelling: Heartbreakers Anonymous – Featuring Jit Murad, Dara (of Air-Con) and others (Gallery 1, 2nd Floor)

SUN 31 AUG

12pm - 2pm: Lecture: From Panji To The Present – A short history of sexuality in Malaysia and South East Asia by Dr Farish A Noor (Gallery 5, 1st Floor)
3pm - 5pm: Workshop: Tongues Out – Borak-borak on our sexuality landscapes (Gallery 4, 1st Floor)
6pm - 7pm: Malaysian Artists For Diversity with Ning Baizura, Ida Nerina and more. If you are a Malaysian artist(e) and would like to voice your support or dedicate a song to the community, please contact us! (Gallery 1, 2nd Floor)

FREE ADMISSION TO ALL EVENTS!

PLEASE INVITE FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES WHO ARE SUPPORTIVE. MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!

Contact: pang@annexegallery.com

Discrimination within Discrimination

August 18th, 2008
Posted by: nakedwriter

Bryan Tai writes about the double-standards that exist within the lgbt community.

Perhaps in almost every gay dating website that I have visited, phrases like “No Fems!”, “No Queens!”, or “No Fats!”, appear in abundance. Although I must admit that these phrases do not offend me as they are merely written to convey the preferences of the authors, they greatly perturb me as every time I come across such phrases, I never fail to ask myself: “How would these “Fems”, “Queens”, and “Fats” feel when they come across these phrases?”.

In “No Fats, No Fems: the Gay Masculine Ideal”, John A. Lewis, Jr. describes a prevailing masculine ideal in our society today that discriminates against male individuals who portray conventional feminine characteristics. In this article, I would not discuss how “prevailing” this ideal is in various cultures, demographies or countries. Instead, I would like to express my opinions on the ramifications and repercussions attached to these overt expressions of one’s preferences.

“Face the truth Bryan, as much as we say that emotional attraction is most important, you or I would never date someone who is ugly and fat.” When a friend of mine uttered to me the aforementioned sentence in a blatant yet nonchalant way, I was utterly dumbfounded. I understand that physical attractiveness plays a role in the process of “mate-seeking”, not only for LGBT-identified individuals, but perhaps, risking political inaccuracy, for all individuals as well. Nonetheless, the question I ended up pondering for the rest of the day was: “Should we be so overtly honest about our preferences with regard to physical attractiveness to the extent that it instigates negative feelings among others or even to the extent where it would be considered as condescending discrimination?”. Should we (LGBT-identified individuals), people belonging to a community that is subjected to discrimination and oppression, force more oppression on certain sub-communities in our community?

I understand that we have the rights to be honest about our preferences. People who prefer male partners should be allowed to distinctly choose male partners and likewise for others with other preferences. However, would it be better if we were a little more subtle about it? Perhaps by saying: “I am sorry, I am not attracted to you, not specifically because you are fat/feminine, but because I simply think that we are not compatible.”, we would inflict a lot less harm than by being overtly honest.

Sometimes in life, I find that there is really no one best solution that is exclusively “right”. In this case, we either tell the blatant truth and risk hurting people’s self-esteem or we tell a white lie to inflict less possible pain. I, personally do not think that the latter or the former is more righteous than the other; they are simply two alternatives. Nonetheless, I do hope that this article would convey the message that although it is completely fine to be completely honest about your preferences, it might be more appropriate to be more subtle in order to reduce discrimination within discrimination.

Work Cited
Lewis, J. A. Jr. “No Fats, No Fems: the Gay Masculine Ideal”. 2008-05-13. (http://www.articlesbase.com/men%27s-issues-articles/no-fats-no-fems-the-gay-masculine-ideal-412718.html)

Petition on Sexuality Rights In Malaysia

August 18th, 2008
Posted by: Gabrielle Chong Yong Wei

Two months ago, Alina Rastam and Shanon Shah wrote and disseminated a Letter to the Editor entitled “Don’t Let Homophobia
Undermine Human Rights”. We are pleased to report to you that they managed to get more than 140 individual signatures and 2
organizational endorsements within 24 hours of writing the letter. Even after submission to the media, they kept getting signatures. The
letter eventually carried more than 200 signatures.

The letter was carried by Malaysiakini the very next day. It was also really encouraging that there were several other letters written in
defense of sexuality rights, written by Malaysians, published in both the independent and government-linked press, like The Star.

It is therefore felt that it was only logical to expand the framework of the letter into a full-blown petition, calling for unconditional
respect of sexuality rights for all who live in Malaysia.

Please sign onto the petition, and call on all your friends and networks to sign on as well. 

Our aim is simple - to get Malaysians from all walks of life, who abhor all kinds of discrimination on the basis of sexuality and sexual
identity, to have a space to take a public stand in solidarity with each other. The issue of sexuality is being used as bait by the State,
the leading political parties and several discriminatory organizations. As we approach Merdeka and Malaysia Day celebrations on
31 August and 16 September, it is important for us to stress that we respect all kinds of diversity in Malaysia, from racial, to religious,
to political, to sexual. If you believe and want to affirm this, please give this petition your full support. It’s about time we had
our voices heard.

We do make one initial request though. This petition is an open petition. Anyone from anywhere in the world can sign if they support
it. But, we’d like to especially focus on getting signatures from our fellow Malaysians first. As citizens of a country where freedom of
expression and information is curtailed in so many areas - from the environment, to violence against women, to political participation -
it is imperative that we show each other support and encouragement by making this a Malaysian-led initiative. We welcome solidarity from
around the world, but we hope this point is understood in the best light.

Thank you for your support, and semoga kita sama-sama membina Malaysia yang menghormati hak dan maruah kita semua!

Sign the petition at: http://www.petitiononline.com/psrmsia/petition.html

Falling for the Straight People

August 16th, 2008
Posted by: Sam Nasser

It happens to the best of us. Sometimes, our feelings get in the way of our logic and we start falling for the people closest to us - people whom we love with all our heart and soul, yet know may never reciprocate our love despite all we’ve been through together. The straight people. Your best friend. Your colleague. Your college mate. You know that although you share a common bond, your sexuality is different and vastly separate than that of theirs - and for fear of rejection, you hide the truth.

Perhaps it will go away, you think. Perhaps, it’s just a crush - a phase. Perhaps he / she won’t ever have to know that I’m in love with him / her but unknowingly, having spent enough time in their company - your attraction culminates to a point where you simply cannot have it be a secret anymore.

You reveal it.

It is a true test of friendship. Some of us are rejected cruelly. Others are let down gently, their friendship never faltering - but falling for the straight people teaches us that humans feel deeply for others, irregardless of sexuality - and some understand it enough to let you protect your emotions as a friend, while others are blinded by stereotype and paranoia that they avoid socializing with a gay person for fear of inevitably catching some sort of a virus, or even worse - be branded gay as well.

It’s the way the humans work: we reject those we do not understand.

For me, I understand what it’s like to be on the end of the rejected - having been on the receiving end of cruel cold rejection before and I understand exactly what it is like to be on one end of the spectrum only to see the man I love on the other end; knowing that we can never be together. That doesn’t stop me from loving him however, and six years on - I still do. He was my first love, and although it never worked out - somewhere in the back of my memory, I still remember who and what he was to me as if it was yesterday.

This is my story.

I was sixteen then, and it was February 2002 and Mattheu had just returned to the country, having spent the last few years in the United States. We were in the same class, but never talked until one day - by accident, my pants caught on a nail, tore open a gaping hole and I became the laughing stock of the class. But Mattheu, unlike the others didn’t laugh - instead, he fetched a needle and thread from the teacher’s office, brought it back and helped me sew my the tear. And that was when I first met him.

We became good friends. Months on, Mattheu and I spent long hours together - games was the common ground between us, and he taught me to love basketball, speak in a wild unknown lingo, and dance. There were some laughs, and some great moments together - and two long years had passed, I fell for him.

I suppose it was because he seemed much more older; and there was a tone of maturity in his voice. He was cute in the way he acted, he was well-built and smelled good and the American accent he had on him was wickedly attractive.

One day during a sleepover at his place, I lost my senses: I kissed Mattheu.

We were at his grandmother’s house then, it was two days after Eid and he had lost his grandmother a few days ago. Caught us by shock it did; we woke up one morning to find a commotion: his grandmother had collapsed in the bathroom and had fallen into a coma. Three hours later, she had passed on in the early hours of the morning and a funeral was immediately held to whatever relatives and friends were present and available at the moment.

As Mattheu grieved over the loss of his grandmother, I felt the kiss was a comfort to him - or as much as I thought of it as comfort in the darkest times. But when he awoke to the peck on his forehead, he turned aside in another turmoil to the sudden realization that his best friend was gay.

Telling his parents about the kiss, they told him to stay away from me - and after I got back from his kampung; was the last I heard of him. Three days later however, when I was visiting a friend’s house - he showed up, much to my surprise when he said he wouldn’t be coming back anytime in the next two weeks.

Words were exchanged over the dinner table that evening, and Mattheu told me the true reason of why he stayed away. He could not accept the fact that I was gay, and when I admitted to the kiss and my sexuality - our friends supported him; not one interested in what I had to say about the nature of the kiss. It was at that brief moment that I felt the strongest pain in my heart, and realized that I had lost a friendship, breached it with a forbidden love; my love unrequited.

Five years later, I am still battling the memory of the things I did and the friendships I botched up, as well as the misunderstandings between the both of us and the lack of honesty we could’ve given. And I can still remember Mattheu telling me that we were two world’s apart - two cultures different, and that he could never understand the kiss I gave him, even if it was on the forehead. Sometimes I do even still feel the burning sensation of the loneliness and the long periods of silence without his company and how much I remembered - that that was the time I most wanted to curl up in a hole six feet under, and die.

Still I love him very much, and even though we could never have been together. But despite the age-old gay warning, telling us to “not fall for the straight people” - perhaps if there were less prejudice and more understanding, we would all respect each other as humans better.

Think Again | Stop AIDS

August 15th, 2008
Posted by: Auntie Ana

By Legolas. You can view his blog at http://legolas80.blogspot.com/

HIV is on the rise, not only in the US, the UK, but also Malaysia. The doctors from hospitals knew, the anonymous screening at Pink Triangle Foundation shows, those people with HIV can tell. There is no statistics recorded with real numbers and cold evidence because the government couldn’t care less. They don’t recognize the problem’s source because they keep their eyes shut to homosexuality, even if they knew we exist. They’re more interested in money, power and coming up with silly thoughts.

How many of us had unprotected sex before? How many times you think you can be lucky and get away with it? 5 times? 10 times? No, it takes only 1 time. 1 time of fun and then a lifetime of pain. You say you trusted your partner. How sure are you? You can only be 100% sure if you are with him 24/7. It doesn’t mean you don’t trust your partner when you want to have protection, it means you love yourself. And like they always say, you have to love yourself before you can love other people. If your partner left you because of that, he didn’t love you at all, and he’s definitely worthless.

Who is going to protect yourself better than your own self? Don’t be so ignorant about HIV because no matter how good the medication nowadays have advanced, there is still no cure to HIV, after 27 years since it was first discovered. Don’t engage in unprotected sex no matter how much you trust your sexual partner. Learn and understand about AIDS and HIV. Get yourself tested every 6 months, even if you didn’t have sex because there is a possibility you might get it from other ways.

Don’t put yourself and the people you love in danger. The next time you want to have unprotected sex, think again. It takes only 1 time. Treasure your life and love yourself more.

HIV on Wikipedia

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Time to Engage Mak Nyah

August 14th, 2008
Posted by: nakedwriter

Here is Dina Zaman’s column published in The Star today regarding transsexuals.

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A TRANSSEXUAL asked: “Since Islam rejects people like me, may I leave Islam?”

“Now I know you are really crazy! You’re already in trouble with the
authorities, you want to court more trouble?” her colleague
interjected.

“I don’t see what the problem is. You, and I, and everyone here are
subject to harassment all the time, and constantly reminded that we
are an abhorrent to the faith. So why be part of a religion that
rejects you?”

This particular dilemma was discussed at an audit I undertook as part
of an HIV/AIDS project recently.

The audit was conducted to identify gaps in outreach work in HIV/AIDS
in Malaysia, and the discussion with transsexuals, who make up a good
number of marginalised communities (the others are injecting drug
users, gay men and sex workers), was illuminating to say the least.

A transsexual identifies ‘herself’ as – or desires to live and be
accepted as – a member of the sex opposite to that assigned at birth.

In Malaysia, derogatory slang to describe them would be pondans, laki
lembut or mak nyah, though the latter term has been embraced by the
community as an identifying factor in their cause.

The public perception of transsexuals ranges from contempt and
revilement to resigned acceptance.

The fact is, transsexuals have existed in our society even before
Independence, and played a significant role in the community.

They’re the dapur pondans – kitchen helpers – who worked for families
as cooks and cleaners in a long gone era, and in villages were known
as meks, who acted as the local tailor, make-up artist and wedding
planner.

It is fascinating to compare the fond memories of the older generation
of Malaysians who grew up with transsexuals as neighbours and domestic
help.

The argument that is bandied in contemporary Malaysia is that they
knew their place, and were not ‘out there’ now as transsexuals who –
as moralists have argued – contribute to moral decay.

From a religious standpoint, transsexualism is forbidden. Islam
permits hermaphrodites to undergo sex change operations so the person
can choose to be either a female or male.

Forbidden are mukhannis – men who behave like women and dress like
them, and even undergoing sex change surgery to become women.

Non-Muslim transsexuals fare slightly better than their Muslim
counterparts, as there is no official ruling as with the Muslims, even
though their religions also forbid such actions. If caught, they would
be charged for cross dressing and indecent behaviour under Section 21
of the Minor Offences Act 1955.

A Muslim man caught cross dressing can be charged under Section 28,
Syariah Criminal Offences (FT) Act 1997, for immoral behaviour, and is
liable to a fine not exceeding RM1,000 or to imprisonment not
exceeding one year, or both.

The biggest grouse that rose out of the discussion was how they were
portrayed on television shows by male personalities. Camped up, and in
the words of a TS “? crude and lascivious ?” Not all transsexuals are
involved in sex work, are campy, crass and uneducated.

“Why are we made the receiving end of jokes?” a transsexual asked.
“The authorities tell us that what we do is bad ? as we are men, and
should behave like men.

“And on television you have male actors dressed in drag, and playing
it up to the hilt. And the language used! This makes us look bad.

“It doesn’t help when a few TS also play up to the myth by being loud
and crass.”

Also noted was how the media approached the subject of transsexuals
and transgender. The Malay media would be rather patronising, which
does not help the cause. The English media sit on the fence, while the
Chinese press is more open and sympathetic.

What transsexuals want is for them and the media to work together to
highlight the social and health issues they face, so that they can do
more effective advocacy work with government and religious
authorities.

The reason a number of TS are involved in sex work is because they do
not have a source of income.

With the market already so saturated by wedding planners of various
sexualities (not all transsexuals want a career in fashion and
cosmetics), and in ‘proper’ professional institutions their very
presence clashes with the image of the organisation, where are they to
go, and what are they to do?

B who comes from a well-to-do and supportive Malay family, thinks the
problems could be solved if transsexuals themselves do not engage in
“improper behaviour”.

She is one of the very few transsexuals who keep away from the Mak
Nyah community. She considers herself well educated and proper, and
does not indulge in clubbing and other activities that transsexuals
involve themselves in, as she believes all these negate their cause.

When asked if she would consider mentoring, as she would be considered
a ’successful transgender’ who has assimilated well in society, she
declined.

The issue of class and economic status is too jarring, and there would
be resentment.

“It’s how you carry yourself, that makes people respect you. I know
people think I’m a snob, but I could never let down my family.”

She practises safe sex, dates ‘proper men’ and not “sell her body”.
She has no contact with her ’sisters’ from Chow Kit and from the less
stellar parts of Kuala Lumpur.

All is not lost. Already there are success stories: at PT Foundation,
a weekly fardhu ain class is held for TS, sex workers and people in
the community, so they can learn more about Islam.

More transsexuals are claiming their rights and are empowered. What
the authorities, the medical community, human rights activists and the
TS community should do is to keep on engaging with each other on TS
issues.

The writer lives in KL. She thanks her readers for their emails but is
unable to reply to everyone because of work.

The Not-so-bright Future

August 13th, 2008
Posted by: nakedwriter

 

 

 

 

-          In the United States alone, HIV infections among gay men have risen 75% over the last 15 years (news report from CDC).

-          Globally, men who have sex with men, or MSM (regardless of sexual orientation), are 19 times more likely to be infected with HIV compared to the general population.

-          They are 18 times more likely to be infected with HIV compared to the general population in Asia alone.

-          The Foundation for AIDS Research (amfAR) studied 128 countries. 44% (nearly half) of them failed to provide any data whatsoever on MSM.

-          71% did not have any information on the percentage of MSM reached by HIV prevention program.

-          These statistics include Malaysia.

(Source: “MSM, HIV, and the Road to Universal Access – How Far Have We Come?” August 2008, Special Report by the Foundation for AIDS Research (amfAR))

While initiatives pertaining HIV/AIDS prevention and awareness have made significant strides among high-risk communities such as with intravenous drug users and sex workers, there is a worrying noticeable trend among the men who have sex with men (MSM) community.

This has prompted WHO Director-General Margaret Chan, and United Nations Secretary-General Ban Ki Moon, to call for governments to target the epidemic among MSM. According to the report released by amfAR, much of the failure to tackle the endemic in MSM communities can be attributed to a lack of leadership from both national governments and the institutions charged with leading the global response to HIV/AIDS.

The task is further hampered by the many social and cultural taboos, government and public prejudice, and media victimization on the community; these factors may be responsible for forcing many individuals of the community into underground and non-mainstream alternatives to continue their lifestyles, making prevention and outreach work increasingly difficult.

Tilted World, through its posts and work, should continue to bring such issues to the mainstream of society, albeit beginning with the online community. Misconceptions such as those found in several mainstream media publications, the criminalising of sodomy, and police raids on lgbt-related events should be addressed immediately, on and off-line.

Love is Love

August 12th, 2008
Posted by: choirboy13

Growing up as a gay male wasn’t always a terrible thing for me. The only struggle I ever faced was the fight within my own frame of mind. No one was bothered about who I liked (sexually) or whether I was straight (or not). Occasionally, in my teens and even in my early adulthood, people would ask me the “are you gay?” question – a question I always brilliantly found a way to answer with another question, leaving everyone even more curious. I always answered in a manner that would not arouse suspicion. I guess that was how I allowed people to just ignore who I am and let me live how I want.

The excitement in my life came when I started trying to ignore my homosexuality. I remind myself of those people we sometimes contentiously call “ex-gays” – gays who don’t want to be gay. I went through that phase for a while. I blame it on the warnings I got from “biblical prohibition” on gay behavior. I come from a somewhat liberal yet devoted Christian family. It haunted me. It made me shy away from accepting who I really was, until I realized one day that religion should help people accept themselves,and not doubt whoever and whatever they are.

I was one of those who got influenced for a while with the whole concept of heteronormativity. Deep inside I knew I was gay, but at times I had to conform to the things that were deemed acceptable socially. It caused me to feel uncomfortable sometimes, but it certainly made me stronger, eventually.

I struggled for a while. I wanted to be myself and totally let go, but I couldn’t. I wanted to love freely, but I was afraid of what would happen.

Then things turned around when I attended a talk in some church. A question on homosexuality was posed. I turned from a sleepy participant to one wide awake, eager to hear how the speaker, an old priest, was going to answer the question: “Is homosexuality something really that unacceptable?”

I smiled. Finally… something interesting.

The reply from the priest shocked me. This old, mumbly priest replied with a very sweet smile:
“Look at it this way – love is love. Sometimes homosexuals can show a kind of love that is even purer than the kind of love straight people have. Straight couples fight and quarrel. So do homosexuals. Love is love; who is to say who you can or cannot fall in love with? Sometimes homosexuals can teach us a thing or two about love, because they may sometimes be more affectionate than the rest of us.”

I almost wanted to shout a loud “Amen!” but thought I’d just keep to myself.

Love is love. Who in the world has the right to tell you what kind of person you must fall in love with?

I began to love myself more. And because of that, I can express my love outwardly better. Love is love.

You see, even though homosexuals suffer from derisive jokes and have to endure annoying labels of all sorts, we do know what love feels like. Being gay is just another way of being.

 

Gay Little Self

August 11th, 2008
Posted by: John Ong

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I’m scaling down. In more ways than one. Instead of telling you about my opinion about China, how the West look at China, and all the big issues, I’m telling you a very personal story about my growing up, being a little gay boy.

Gay Little Self